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motherhood after infertility


Changes January 4, 2010

Filed under: Family,Motherhood — Linnea @ 1:26 pm

Our baby boy’s due date is less than a month away now and I’ve spent my share of time wondering how I’ll manage Sky at eighteen months along with a newborn. Today though, it occurred to me that I should be spending at least an equal amount of time enjoying my little girl. Right now she has my undivided attention, and although it’s uncomfortable to carry her on top of my oversized belly, I can still cuddle her whenever she wants it. I admit that sometimes she frustrates me, but she also makes me laugh – a lot. This morning when I was getting ready in front of the mirror, I realized she was being way too quiet. I expected to turn around and find my dresser emptied or my journal destroyed or something like that, but instead she was sitting quietly on the floor, studying a People magazine as if she could read every word. I love taking pictures of her and looking at them later when she’s in bed for the night. It helps me remember the good moments from the day and washes away some of the tension.

When the two of us are home alone during the week, we go on plenty of outings to move each day along. We go to the park and outside for walks and to the children’s section of the library, but I also take her to the places I like – Barnes and Noble and Panera. Sky loves being out and interacting with people, and although she’s pretty demanding while we’re in the car, I’m still only responsible for one child at this point. There’s just one car seat in our Forrester and I’m still using a single stroller. Hopefully by springtime, I’ll be out and about with both Sky and her little brother, and I’m sure I’ll take plenty of pictures of our son and both kids together. But it won’t be quite the same as life now with just my daughter. And as I appreciate having two kids, I also want to know that I enjoyed the time I had with just one.

 

4 Responses to “Changes”

  1. Malin Says:

    Wow Linni!! It’s amazing that Sky is so big now.. she looks really “grown up” on that picture with a ponnytail and sitting and reading a magazine. It sounds great with nice walks and outdoing things. Here it’s snow and it’s supposed to be even more soon again.. I love it but it had been fun visiting Florida sometime too..

    Take care,
    Malin

  2. Brandi Says:

    Soak it up! I remember wishing away those last weeks of pregnancy when I was expected my first, instead of soaking up each moment alone with Jon. With each baby since, I’ve learned to cherish the time with each child(ren) and relish every moment.

    In the words of Yoda “Much wisdom, you have” Linnea :)

  3. TLC Says:

    It sure seems like this pregnancy went by fast.
    Yes, enjoy your time with Skylar before her brother arrives. Maybe later after he is born and in a routine, there can be some days when you and Skylar can have a day to yourselves while Grammy has a day with her grandson.
    My two were 22 months apart with the oldest barely two. I remember there were times it was difficult especially when I was tired but there were also times when my toddler was a big help to me with something as small as going to the other side of the house or room to get something for me. Our photo albums showed me there were good times mixed with the overwhelming demands of motherhood and that I did take the time to enjoy them with each stage they were in. I admire your diligence on capturing the moments on camera for you are building memories to reflect on. They will be reminders that you enjoyed each child’s stage during those whirlwind seasons when it seems like just a blurr.

  4. Patsy Emholtz Says:

    Linni-I have been reading back through some of your articles….and feeling so very blessed for the loving, Godly people I call ‘family’…extended from my own children…who have consumed so much of my own life – and still do today…how priveleged I am….so are you. The JOY..I have – in my grandchildren and now..great’s..and they are GREAT…in watching them explore life as each day passes…each day is a treasure all it’s own. Glad you take lotsa photos..!!
    I believe Skye will be a wonderful ‘big sister’ ..because she definitely is filled with God’s spirit….and ready to exercise it! it’s a delight to my soul to watch Terry and John as grandparents, and I KNOW..you and Ad will embrace each new day with your new baby boy..with the same anticipation, love and care…you have with Skye….
    There most definitely will be days of “how am I going to manage this?”…you will…because the Lord is always with you…and He WILL see you through – whatever the circumstance or situation..and tuly is..your “very present help in times of trouble (need)” I can’t tell you how many times I’ve asked Him that question..audibly..and sometimes immediately, others…minutes,hours go by..but He always responded with the solution….and still does that today. He’s ALWAYS faithful…His Grace is sufficient…each new day.
    I can hardly wait for our new miracle to arrive!
    Loving you dearly and send blesssings abounding,
    GG (2 Co. 3:5 – “He gives us the ability to do ALL things” (paraphrased)